It is now nearly two and half years since I was last able to cross-dress as a woman. During that period circumstances have prevented any opportunities to indulge myself in my desire to look female. As yet, I still have no idea when I may be able to cross-dress again. Realistically it is looking like early summer in 2023 just now. That will be three years I will have waited.
For me, my wife and family and need to earn an income come ahead of my own desire to dress as a woman. I see my cross-dressing as a luxury indulgence. I do feel overwhelming urges to appear as a woman but I had to keep them at bay. However, the old expression of ‘absence makes the heart grow fonder’ is proving to be true!
I have continued to make plans for the next opportunity to spend time as my female self. I’ve been planning pretty much since my last cross-dressing session back in March 2020. My plans have changed and evolved over this long period and I am quietly excited about the day I can finally indulge in them. I have noted changes in how I feel about my desire to present myself asa a female, more acceptance and confidence about it and what I want from the experience. To this end I have refocused on achieving this. My ambition, indeed my dream, is to pass completely as a woman. I love the challenge and I am motivated to do my best to carry this off convincingly. As cross-dressers, we all have our own reasons for doing it, for me, passing as a real woman is what I try to achieve.
I think I now have a better feel for the kind of female clothing, wig styles, shoes and make-up that works for me based on my physicality and mental approach. I feel I now know what time of women I can become. Needless to say, this does not really involve the usual preferences favoured by cross-dressers. I am seeking real world female rather than male cross-dresser. This has caused me to refine the clothing styles I intend to wear.
Over the last two years I’ve been refreshing my female wardrobe to reflect this. I have purchased a few new dresses and shoes in line with my aim of passing myself off as a woman. I am still hooked on the more feminine styles, ultimately I am still a cross-dresser! I’ve been observing women and how they present themselves and zoned in on the female style I feel I could, with practice, maybe portray convincingly. I am feeling super excited about this, and I’m eager to give it a go.
I think the secret of looking real as a man pretending to be a woman, is to be aware of the styles and colours that actually work nit just wearing stuff that excites you or fulfils the fantasy we all have. I should declare, there are some clothing styles I still love to wear and will always do so but not for my real world female look. I still love wearing short dresses and I intend to enjoy the delight of wearing them. My liking for them is not going away. I am a man dressing up as a woman and it does excite me, it’s always a huge thrill to do so and the cross-dressing also fulfils on an emotional level as part of me does desire to be female.
Over the years I have discovered that I enjoy talking openly on video about my feelings and experiences with cross-dressing as woman. One of my future plans is to record a series of videos expanding further on this. It will also be a nice opportunity to wear all of my new dresses as I can change outfit throughout the recording of the videos to add visual variety to my presentation. I have a few subjects I plan to chat about on camera though I am open to answering questions or musing on other cross-dressing related topics anyone may have a suggestion for.If you do have any ideas I would be delighted to hear from you.
In the past I did attempt to do interviews with other cross-dressers but my efforts never really took off. I managed a few but it seems cross-dressers are not willing to chat on camera! I find chatting to the camera when I am dressed as a woman a nice experience and I adore the freedom I feel to finally actually voice how I feel openly and out loud. I am intrigued by others that cross-dress and would genuinely love to hear from others about their own thoughts on it. I would encourage you to try making a view videos chatting to the camera. Even if you never post them I find it is the actual moment of recording them whilst en femme that I enjoy. I can’t wait to wear my new dresses and shoes in the future, I am enjoying the anticipation and hope it can happen within the next twelve months.
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