Hello
An unfortunate still frame for this video! I am not very good looking and Flickr picks a random frame from the first fifteen seconds and so compounds my lack of beauty as this one is not pretty!
I am re-posting this video. On its first outing it received about ten views over several months proving it held no interest whatsoever to anyone. So why am I re-posting it you may ask (assuming you are still reading this narrative)?
Well, despite being a poor video I d actually like the memory of the finally being able to express myself on a topic I had always debated with myself. It was rewarding to finally open up on camera about the thoughts I had.
It was quite late at night when I recorded this so I a definitely not looking good and I see the flaws in my makeup but the liberation was nice so the re-posting is a selfish indulgence. I do not expect it to be of interest this time either but I hope I can be forgiven for posting it for my own fulfillment. The mere act of actually putting on Flickr is something I still get a thrill from as I am very private with my cross-dressing so anytime I post on Flickr I feel somewhat reckless with my actions and fear ridicule. Yet, I still get a thrill from the adventure of going public.
I do attract negative, sometimes threatening responses to my videos and photo narratives but I know I need this outlet...I really do need it...so I persist in inflicting my indulgences on Flickr groups. The positive responses are encouraging and I am always grateful for those kind gestures.
Helene x
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