The desire to cross-dress and spend time as a woman is powerful within me just now. As is my norm, I am not able to act on this yearning and so I look through my pictures and videos recorded from previous cross-dressing opportunities to help as the memories are always lovely to recall.

I came across a video recording I had forgotten about which came from a webcam taken during my ill-fated attempt to launch an interview series with other cross-dressers called T-chat. That idea withered away well before the Pandemic.

Seeing the webcam recording, which is quite poor resolution, I was affected emotionally by witnessing just how much I seemed to be at ease and full of delight being a woman. I was obviously feeling more confident as I loved wearing he make-up, the wig and he female clothes. I on't deny it felt amazing compared to appearing as a man.

I was wearing a lot of make-up as I wanted to feel like a professional female interviewer on camera.I enjoyed the style of foundation coverage and the defined eyeliner and mascara and I adored the woman's shirt I was wearing and wore lipstick to match coated with lipgloss. I had plucked my eyebrows and was thrilled to wear make-up like this. I had chosen a wig in a style I thought a female TV presenter may have and unbuttoned the shirt in what I hoped was a hint of feminine sexiness. I thought the large hooped ear rings would ad a casual touch to a semi formal look for the camera. Out of shot I was wearing a black knee length pencil skirt with my freshly shaved legs clad in flesh coloured tights (pantyhose). I had been wearing beige high heels to complete the look. I notice though I must have slipped them off as I can see them on the shelf behind me!

I think the make-up I was wearing that day truly had a big effect on me, I adored it, and it boosted my confidence considerably, and helped me imagine I was female.It was a lotto make-up but I really felt the part and wished my little dress up session was real, that I was a female TV presenter getting made up for the camera and stepping out on set in feminine clothing and heels.

I suppose, for me, my dream of being a woman is lived out by my cross-dressing and indulging in these little scenarios. All I know is the day I did this it felt amazing, I truly felt alive and confident in a way I had never previously experienced.

Cross-dressing is always emotionally rewarding and always exciting and I feel it is a bit of an adventure too. I am a man but I really do love spending time as a woman.

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My last opportunity to dress as a woman was back in November 2023, some seven months on and I still do not foresee any new opportunities to indulge in my love of female illusion anytime soon. It's a little frustrating as I have a lot of new dresses to wear that I've been quietly buying in sales over the last year. My female clothing is mainly bought in sales as it's a nice way to get some gorgeous feminine clothes at good value. I can often get three dresses, for example, at what was the original price for just one. That's a cross-dressing tip I would definitely recommend.

In my periods of being unable to dress as a woman , which is most of the time for me, I like to browse through my photos and videos and recall the delightful memories of the occasions I was able to become my female alter-ego. I do love and adore dressing as a woman, I really enjoy my time in my female guise. There is a delight in imagining I am female that I never experience as a man. I always enjoy having shaved legs, chest and arms and shaping my eyebrows, I enjoy the physical commitment to attempting to look more feminine.

I've said many times in the past how much I enjoy wearing make-up, wigs and dresses, they are just so fabulous and you feel amazing! I will admit to feeling a lot more confident presenting as a woman than I do as a man. Somehow being feminine is empowering compared to being male. I'm sure many men would disagree but for me I feel better being a woman. I will likely be accused of delusion as reality is I am a man dressing as a woman so in truth I know nothing of what women really have to experience. I am, I suppose, enjoying the trappings of femininity without facing the reality of being female.

Transvestism has featured strongly in my life and it took me a long time to set it free. For years I did all I could to suppress the urges and desires that I had to try and spend time dressed as a woman. I know I keep saying 'dressed as a woman' but that's my reality. It is all I can do to express the feelings I've always had about my inner desire to be feminine. These days I attempt to dress in a real world manner, so I can, hopefully, pass as a woman. This doesn't mean wearing dull styles, far from it, but I do now favour styles women would choose over what my transvestite desires have a liking for. I accept I have those desires so every now and again I like to indulge them.

This picture is one of those times. I had just shaved my legs and plucked my eyebrows and as I applied my make-up I found myself wanting to be a bit girly. I applied several coats of mascara to my lashes to help feminise them, I enjoyed my thinner shaped eyebrows and feeling a bit daring decided on a darker lipstick and chose my mid length blonde wig and decided on a black button through mini dress and pointed toe stiletto heels. I won't deny, I feel amazing stepping onto the photo set I had setup for my evening of indulging in photo taking as a my female self.

I loved...loved...doing this. I dreamt of the years I had missed on being a teenage girl and young woman (I only began to cross-dress as a woman in my early 40s...I wasted so much time...)

You only live once so it's good to have a bit of fun and dare to do things that are, let's be honest, gentle and harmlesss. It is a truth that we often experience fear and guilt when it comes to being men that dress as women but I feel sure most of us do enjoy our time in our dresses, heels, make-up and wigs. It's all an illusion but it is such an amazing experience. I think you can see why I couldn't resist slipping into the short dress and heels and put on the make-up...it was fun and yet, something I needed on an emotional level too.

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I'm still burning with the desire to spend time as my female self but highly unlikely to have an opportunity before summer at the earliest. As ever I'm reliving my past experiences of dressing as a woman through browsing my photos and videos (in which I ramble on, and on, and on...)

Feeling the need to express my femme self I'm posting yet another of my cross-dressing musings. All I can say , despite being out of practice and applying my make-up rather ineptly, I loved my time as a woman!

The dress I am wearing in this video really felt amazing and I truly adored wearing it, it was fabulous, I felt quite the girl! I just love cross-dressing and the emotive freedom it gives me.

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These last few days have seen my desire to spend time as a woman continue to fill me with an overwhelming desire. No-one said being a cross-dresser was easy! Once more, I have taken refuge in my usual coping method as I have no opportunity to set free my inner desire to appear as a woman. I'm back browsing my photo and video archive and enjoying the memories from this times in the past when I actually managed to cross-dress. It's always a heart warming experience as I do so love to dress as a woman, I adore it!

As I dress alone and in private 99.9% of the time (I have on rare occasions met with other cross-dressers and even ventured out as a woman, but truly, this is incredibly rare. I have too much fear and lack confidence in my appearance and ability to act female), I have come to use the camera as my friend and confidante. In the last ten years I have enjoyed talking in a stream of consciousness manner to a video camera. I never get an opportunity to voice my feelings about my transgender feelings so the camera is my outlet.

I would genuinely encourage others to do this as it is so liberating to be appearing as a woman and to just talk freely and openly about it all. You never have to show the video if you prefer not to, it's more, well for me, the actual freedom when recording rather than any worthwhile outcome, I just love the liberation and freedom it provides.

I'm posting a bit of video, more random musings really, from back in March 2023, pretty much a year ago. I had attempted a different look to my usual. I wore stronger coloured ;lipstick, heavier eyeliner and shaped my eyebrows differently and cost a more sassy patterned dress and glossy patent stiletto court shoes. It was partly driven by the suppressed actor within me, I wanted to try and portray myself as a confident but feminine wife. I love the dare, the adventure of challenging myself to behave completely female. As I'm in my sixties now I will never be an attractive young woman so I'm aiming for the mature housewife who has a bit of sass and adventure about her.

I harbour a lot of fantasies alongside my cross-dressing, one is going out for a meal as a wife with a husband and being perceived completely as the woman. It's an odd one as I'm not attracted to men but rather, a bit unfair of me I would say, I would be willing to use a man as a prop to try and help sell my female illusion...what an adventure!

The video is rubbish in reality and for some reason I literally just stopped speaking (as the abrupt ending will show). I'm editing the video in a bit of a rush as I'm so rarely on my own and I have a unforeseen half hour alone. I could probably have chosen parts from other recordings I made back in March 2023 but time is against me. I'm really only posting the video more as a wee celebration to myself that I can exist, albeit briefly, now and again as a woman. The video is a confirmation to me I can o occasion free my female self. I love spending time as a woman, love it!

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Some days I just yearn to be wearing full feminine attire. I find myself wanting to apply make-up, choose nice lingerie, put on a dress and step into feminine shoes. In that moment I just want to be a woman! I find my heart bursts with the desire. It's powerful, and it can crash in with no warning, literally...bam!

Of course my reality Is I rarely have an opportunity to free my female self and I have to suppress the all consuming desire that has overcome me. At times such as these, I can cope by looking back at pictures of myself appearing as my female as it reminds I have, at times, actually taken on a female appearance, and how I so loved those times when they happen!

In recent years my opportunities to cross-dress and free my feminine side have been limited. I always enjoy every minute of those occasions though and I'm delighted I am able to do this, albeit rarely. When I am my female self I always enjoy the clothes, the fit, the feel, how they move, I enjoy wearing make-up, I just enjoy imagining I am a woman. At times, I almost delude myself I am one!

Today I am missing my female side so I browsed a few of my more recent pictures. I came across this selfie shot from just over a year ago, March 2023, and it felt like it captured my quiet contentment at being a woman. I had attempted a real world female look with my make-up, hair and dress and enjoyed the time more than I can express.

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